How does it feel with just a few more days to go for your first ever release?
To be very frank I am not very nervous because the first reason is that I have not seen the movie myself and would be only seeing it later. Currently I am very busy with my shooting of 'Wo Lamhe' that takes away 14-15 hours of my day. Ye waqt agar khaali hota to main zyaada sochti, but abhi I am so busy ki mere paas sochne ka bhi time nahi hota!
Working 14-15 hours a day???? That's quite hectic!
Ya, it's pretty hectic, but then what to do since you can't help it! One has to work as per other people's schedule too. Also, shooting for 'Gangster' and 'Woh Lamhe' has been pretty much back to back. Still, it's good!
You have entered Bollywood at quite a young age of 19.
Yup, I am 19 and have just started my career. Friends of my age are at college and when they speak to me, I don't really get the stuff that they talk. They tell me about blind dates and things like that and I feel so disconnected! I mean here I am working with so much mature people in the industry and have to talk to so many people with so much of maturity. When I talk to my friends I realize that I am taking life too seriously and I shouldn't be doing that. But then I feel that's fine as it is my fate and I have got it and I am happy with that. Also, I feel good that I am on my own and I don't have to ask my parents for money!
But then do you miss studies at all?
Haan, in my life if there is any regret that I would ever have; it would be if I could finish my studies. Not that I wanted to read 16-18 hours a day but when I look at my sister, she is quite well read as she is a student of Microbiology. I may not really have the kind of knowledge level that she has as I can't talk to a doctor about cardiology like her. So sometimes I feel that I have missed out on gaining that kind of knowledge in my life.
What's your background basically?
I come from Manali [Himachal Pradesh]. My mom is a teacher and my dad is a businessman, basically a contractor.
So you are living all alone in Mumbai or do you have people around you?
I am alone but then my dad and mom are coming over to meet me. Moreover people keep coming over.
Coming back to Gangster, what really promoted you to choose it as your first film?
Dekhiye, films ke baare mein to main khaas socha nahi tha. It so happened that I was in Mumbai and Anurag spotted me and called me for the screen test. It was just that I suddenly got some work and then since it was big, I really liked it and it wasn't something that should have disappointed me! Also there wasn't the case there were too many options to choose from that I had to decide where to start from. This way 'Gangster' was a good way to start.
What really was good for you in 'Gangster'? The Bhatt banner or co-stars like Shiney and Emraan?
See, I hadn't seen Murder but it was mainly Anurag that helped me to decide to act in 'Gangster'. The way he narrated the script to me and explained the character, I realized that he is an intelligent guy. That excited me too much. Moreover he too was making a film after an year. It wasn't as if he had 3 films behind him with the dubbing of fourth in progress and the fifth on the floors. This way he had a lot of fire and energy in him.
What's the kind of character you play in the film?
It is not entirely based on some real life character but ya; there is an extract from a real life love story. The only similarity is that here also the girl is in love with a gangster. It’s a triangular love story which is full of drama, suspense and thrills. You can't say that as a whole it's a biographical film.
Did you have to go through some kind of reference material before you started shooting for the film?
No, in fact when I asked Anurag if I had to study anything for this film, he told me to completely forget what I had learnt in the past and come blank on the sets. Since he wanted spontaneous acting, he wanted himself to take care of my acting bit.
What is the reason behind carrying a bottle in your hands throughout the film?
This girl has a very scattered childhood and is quite sad throughout even at this young age. She wants to die in spite of the fact that her life has just started. Then as soon as she grows up, she falls in love with a gangster which makes her life even more complicated because on one day she is living in a five star hotel, the other night she has to spend on a street. She is loosing so much and this is when Emraan enters her life that makes it a triangular love story. Before meeting him, she is so sad that she gets tries to get rid of her sadness by hitting the bottle. Her past is so sad and painful and you would learn more about that once you watch the film.
Visit this space again tomorrow to read more about Kangna’s views about today’s song’n’dance numbers, her comparison with Madhuri Dixit and her views about two directors she has worked with in Part II of this exclusive interview.